Self-discovery is the most important goal of Life!!
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Normal human heartbeat range is 70-80. My heart stays in the 60-65 range. I always thought of this as a weakness.
As grew up and started taking workouts more seriously, I discovered that I can continue longer while running, skipping, jumping as my low heartbeat gave me the edge to maintain normal BP for a longer period(Athletic stamina).
Getting in action is the most important part of self-discovery and without it, our views and interpretations are like wild waves.
I remember as a kid, I was always God-lover. As I grew- in my teenage I became God-fearing as I was a little mischievous and the less focused person at that time, not wholeheartedly listening to my parent, teachers & later while pursuing engineering, I became an Atheist.
When I was searching for a job, I struggled for 1 year with zero results but my Parents were very supportive and never complained. One day my mom asked me to do a small ritual to please God(Lord Vishnu) according to our Hindu culture. I was a bit reluctant(became a non-believer at that point in time) but thought to give it try.
I miraculously got my first IT job interview when there were 26 participants. Only 10 qualified in the written test, I was last, and only 2 were selected(I was the second) in the interview process, which was just a total of 5-7 mins for me, the rest were having 1-2 rounds for 30-45mins. I was overly thrilled with excitment & faith was re-established in God.
I left my hometown to settle in Pune 1500km away to start my first IT job and soon got busy in new life hustle-bustle.
As I got my self-independence in Oct 2006- I opened up experimenting for enjoyment in both territories physically and mentally. Working hard on weekdays and Drinking, smoking, partying on weekends became usual.
I found myself surrounded by untamed desires and lustful thoughts. For the First time, I had relationships with not 1 but many partners. I was doing these out of curiosity, self-discovering my limits as I thought I have no commitments.
But the good thing was I always use to feel guilty conscious about it. Sometimes I use to curse myself for belonging to a family with strong cultural roots.
In the year 2007, I got my first jerk in Sept when I had series of stomach infections continuing 1-2 months without relief. Being terribly shaken of losing health forever, I consulted well-known doctors and later came to know that I have IBS(irritable bowel syndrome), and this remains for life in some people.
My social life, focus, and happiness became distant dreams, and I was in no way returning to normal. So the first time I had a spiritual awakening and desire to read "Shree Bhagwad Gita" .
I didn't stop after that and read many-2 books related to spiritualism, mysticsm, relationships, self care, confidence and even IBS.
So I was living in the second inning of life where I was exploring my spirituality and self again full time.
I got amazing insights and understanding of my own potential, fears, inconsistencies, angels, and daemons inside me via experimenting with the outer world & the story doesn't end here and 2 more innings to share, but maybe at another article.
People live whole life working, doing duties, eating, sleeping, enjoying & sometimes suffering without caring much about self-discovery what they could have done better via self-discovery.
A person can't escape this world without understanding it fully from his/her depth.
In our culture we respect both forms of Goddess Maa Gauri & Maha Kali.
One form is so serene, caring while the other form is so fierce, completely naked but both are forms of the same Goddess.
We need to understand and explore our existence, appreciating both good and bad in us and to understand our true potential and develop true love of being.
Only then we can show real care for the external world.
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