My IBS story & Spiritual awakening
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20th Oct 2008 Morning, I woke up & got ready. Around 8:30am I was in the office.
This is the time when most the buses reach office full of people(employees). Some looked lazy, some excited, some complete zombies!!
I went to the break-out area after having breakfast to drink some water & suddenly a long uncontrolled and high-volume growling sound came out of the stomach or lower abdomen.
I was completely embarrassed, luckily people standing around were not too close. But I was not always lucky.
I had to run to the toilet & had Diarrhea all sudden. I was shattered by shame & pain. I couldn't tell what I was feeling but it felt like falling flat banging my head straight to the floor.
This use to be my ordeal during the initial years of having IBS(Aug 2008- Colonoscopy was done to confirm IBS). And I had no clue how to fix it & what was causing this problem.
Days passed, I completely lost my interest in food or life. I was just thinking of toilets having non-stop bloating, flatulence, noisy stomach sounds, feeling full without even eating anything, flared & super weak that made every day like hell.
I was too afraid to join any meetings & when it had those super attractive girls of the team, my fear was 10X.
The stress became so huge that I used to wake at 3:30am to clean up my bowels & struggled there for 2-3 hours with sometimes diarrhea, sometimes constipation, pain, huge farts & growling sounds. And I then go to the office.
I was on few medicines, but I hated eating them every day but had no choice as I worked as a professional in the company.
I started searching on the internet how to fix this issue & did got some information about few good medicines which made my symptoms less.
But I wanted to come out of this popping pill habit as I was 26 years young boy. I remember I used to most active talkative, cute, always happy boy in my class from childhood.
One weekend, a thought surprisingly came to my mind that I felt the urge to read the holy book of my religion.
It was lying on the place to worship in my flat where I use to live for many days. My brother had returned(1 week ago) it to the person who gave it to him as none of us got or extracted time to read it.
I asked my brother to get that book again for me & luckily, I got in the evening. The next morning, I started reading it every day. And my life started changing very slowly!!
I wanted to share this as I don't want anyone to suffer so long like I did. I have read the people suffer horrendously from IBS for 15-20 years & suddenly symptoms disappear in surprising ways.
In my coming articles, I will continue on my journey dealing with IBS and coming out of it 80-85% to date.
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